Andrea

ummmm.....

2004-07-26T02:44:42Z

ok, i really have no idea what to say...hmmm...i have a severely sprained ankle...in an aircast..and ill be on crutches for a week, maybe 2...i still gots to go to work...thats ok tho...hmm what else..i hate amandas parents, i hope that they die...umm...yea.. we prolly wont see each other for a while, they hate her and the dont trust her alone with her sisters because the little brainwashed one told them all kinds of bogus shit...lil bitch...hmm what else.. i miss her... i woke up next to her friday and saturday morning... that was about the sweetest thing ever.. wakin up in the middle of the night and bein able to just watch her sleep..feelin her hold me, me holding her... kissing her forhead...caressing... oh man im just makin myself more n more sad...... need sleep..

ill write more tomorrow... :-/

nite all...

*i love YOU*

yea....

2004-07-11T17:56:32Z

ok so i love amanda....we're still together and still going strong...its amazing...weve been spending crazy amounts of time together...its soooo awesome...we r soo made for each other....we finish each others sentances, say the same things, its just all that really cute stuff that people do i guess... all i know is that im so in love with her and i definitely am going to spend the rest of my life with her...i can feel it now, its more than amazing...i cant even describe how she makes me feel..its incredible... yea..just incredible :-)

ok im done now... maybe ill actually use this and start writing in it! ok bye all...

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2004-02-01T13:18:26Z

well yesterday was sooo much fun!! we had our tournament and we played really good but then, everyone just fell. if you want it, u gotta show that u want it, play like you want it..and well, no one does that!! anyway, the fun part was the ride home!! jayson and kate and i went home together...in jaysons lil mini truck so kate was all squished sideways in the back and my knees were pressed against the dashboard..but it was funnn... we went to hooters and some chick shoved her boobs in my face..she said it was to put the blinds down but, i dont think so! i think they get paid more if they do that! haha...anyway so we watched porn for a lil while on the way home...jayson has his truck all expensive with a huge system and tv and dvd n what not...so we watched that for a lil bit...the tv is in the glove compartment so it was super funny because i had to have my legs spread to bring the tv out n then we were watching porn haha... it was great...after that we played truth or dare...ha!!! i learned alot about jayson and his sex-capades! and i also learned alot about kate... :-) we had fun tho, talking bout all kinds of stuff... so we definitly have to do that more often! :-) anyway so that was my day...fun fun funnnn yay

missing you

2004-01-19T19:09:35Z

well i am definitly missing amanda, it seems like we have these amazing days n these horribblleee days...because i see her and we hang out n touch n kiss and love and everything, n then..we have days when we dont even talk to each other...and it sucks like more than anything... i miss her and i just want to hold her...right now, and whenever i want to... and wow i just dont know...

i think im gonna write in here more often, it definitly helps alot to like..get stuff out...

6 months :-)

2003-02-05T02:59:59Z

well today was 6 months :-) Amanda n i are soooo happy :-) i got to see her tonight at the basketball game :-) she's so adorable..i have such good feelings about this..6 months and we're goin super strong, no doubts..no worries...we're super happy and totally sure about this...i love her so much...i hope she doesnt get into tooo much trouble for being at volleyball late...but she'll be ok...im going out to see her on thursday again... :-D i love going to see her, the way she makes me feel is incredible, just her opening her door, seeing her smile standing there with open arms...its amazing...then hugging her, smelling her hair.. oh woww...
so in love...
History project to do....blahhhhhhhhh

so amazing

2003-02-03T21:18:28Z

Amanda is sooo amazing....omg she makes my knees soo weak, n my heart beat fast and my body warm up inside and ohh wowww...the way she kisses me, ohhh..so amazing...i love the feel of her lips on mine n her arms around me...its sooo great...our kisses are sooo sweet...ahhh IM SOOO IN LOVEEEE...her touch, sooo gentle yet soo soo...hott and wowww...omggg...i am sooo spending forever with this girl..ahh AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D I LOVE YOU!

crazy night!

2003-02-03T01:21:34Z

nadine n i are soo crazy!! oh man!! was with her from like 1:30ish til like 8 and omgg...lol we have sooooo much fun together...its soo great...we're so cute n cuddly yet its not like that and its great because its hilarious we have such a great time... we really caught up on missed time n it was really nice...i really missed hanging out with her but its like back like old times again n its great... i kno amanda worries that im gonna start doing the stuff i was doing before when me n nadine hung out...but we're both different people n i wish she wouldnt worry so much...im not gonna get into the drugs n the cutting n stuff...i promised amanda i wouldnt ever do it again n im not breaking that promise...i couldnt...n i dont wanna... but yea.. i had such a good day im in a great mood!!! :-D

soo tireedddd

2003-02-02T02:18:23Z

so we had our first tournament today...we didn't play like we should have...we missed alot of serves n what not but thats ok cuz when we lost...we lost fighting so its all good... amanda was there...she makes me really nervous when she watches me lol... my tummy gets all jumpy... but yea thats alll good... i got to talk to her n be with her for a lil so its worth the nervousness.... hurt my ankle pretty bad...its nice n colored...but yea...im ok...i think...or i at least say i am...n try to act it...yea...don't wanna go to softball tomorro...blows ass...hate it lots...maybe nadine will chill with me...who knows...i dont...anyways...im gonna go back to talkin to amanda...i wish she would just listen to me sometimes...but...she never really has n i guess she never will so i must deal with it then... blahhh

ohhhhh what a sweeet day...

2003-01-30T22:55:29Z

went to my baby's after school :-D she was feelin just like me, all cramped and blah... but thats aight..we still hadda good time...oh boy i am sooo in love its amazing...i really believe its tru this time too...and it's gonna last..the big 6 months in 5 days :-) im really happy..we're making it thru the hard times of not seeing each other...cuz when we do see each other, oh we definitly make up for missed time..let me telllll youuu! :-D she's amazing...i had cramps n she kissed my tummy n they went away :-) i love her so much.. ahh sooo happy!!!! she has a game tonight at home..i should go because well i should...but yea..i can't, so ima find something to do for the night while she's not around...SOO IN LOVEEEEEEEE

grrr

2003-01-29T20:01:59Z

amanda just called my cell...but since i was already at home..I HAD NO SIGNAL...so i didnt kno until i heard her voice message...anyways..u'd think if i didn't answer she would be like..OH well it is snowing and andrea prolly cant drive today so maybe shes at home n i should just call her there... i guess not tho cuz yea..and im kinda sad...cuz..i better fuckin be able to drive tomorro..ugh cuz if i cant :'( i wont be able to go to her house tomorroooo...ahhh ok im ok...i have volleyball tonight...that blows cuz i got my period today and blahh im all crammpyyyy..better note, tournament this weekend..SOO EXCITEDD!!! anyways... i am gonna go lay down now..

volleeyyybballllll n stuff

2003-01-28T20:16:31Z

Volleyball is gggrreeaaatttt!!!!!!! Practice is sooo hard but its soo fun!! Coach made RJ n I captains...that's pretty accomplishing to me...i'm actually kinda proud...she said we work our asses off and we're the best team leaders that she's seen and we really deserve it..so yea...im proud...our first tournament is saturday...im actually quite excited because they moved the buildings and now i'll go get to watch amanda play...that makes me happy, im glad i will get to see her and make her super nervous...thats excited... yea she just hung up on me, she thinks im mad at her..but im really not...im gonna play it out tho as long as i can :-P hehehe...anyways today was good...had to get gas...that blew, i hate pumping gas! blahh...but yea..thursday i get to go see my baby.. :-D anyways... i'm outtie! lataa!!

blahh.. what a freakin dayyy

2003-01-27T21:43:29Z

well today we had a delay for school...i didn't go in anyways tho! so i stayed home and napped and got to be a bum...i had a lil dream about my baby tho...that was cute i woke up smiling :-) then i had to go get myself dressed because i hadda go to the wonderful nutritionist...the lady was nice..she told me i prolly have pms problems, but we can fix those..and she said if i do it right, i should be able to get down to at least 150 with no problem...i kno that still sounds high, but for me...yea...and i will lose fat, not muscle...so i'll still be tough! :-) go me! I GOT TO TALK TO MY WOMAN TODAY...THAT MAKES ME SOOO HAPPPYYYY..anywaysss...my babe's got a game tonight, that's cool and all but boy..i CANNOT wait til her basketball is over..this not talking stuff drives me crazy!! it get's so hard some days...AND i have volleyball practice tonight..i am SOOOO not up for going to northampton at 8 and being there til 10!! that blows..ughh...well i am going to help mom cook dinner..chicken n mixed veggies...oh yess! i will be back to write soon!

when i first saw u i already knew
there was somethin inside of u
somethin i thought that i would never find
angel of mine

i look at u lookin at me
now i kno why they say the best things r free
im gonna love u girl u r so fine
angel of mine

how u changed my world ull never kno
im different now u helped me gro
u came into my life sent from above
when i lost all hope u showed me love
im checkin for ya girl ue right on time
angel of mine

nothing means more to me than what we share
no one in this whole world can ever compare
last night the way u moved is still on my mind
angel of mine

what you mean to me ull never kno
deep inside i need to sho
u came into my life sent from above
when i lost all hope u showed me love
im checkin for ya, girl ur right on time
angel of mine
Monica~Angel of Mine

i just wish everything would be ok

2003-01-27T03:15:28Z

lately...well..not lately...for a while now, everything just sucks...i miss amanda..i never get to see her...and tho the love is there...it always feels like we're slipping..it's hard for just feelings to hold a relationship together...if u can't have the physical aspect of it, it's hard to do...we've been doing ok now for almost 6 months...but its super hard and it makes me really sad... when i'm with her im in another world...so happy and content..just cuddling together, random kisses..smiling and being cute..and then it's time to leave and everything just..goes away...and all we have left r the memories in our minds...i kno we're gonna be ok and we're gonna make it..and eventually everything will just work out for us...but until then its gonna be really hard..somedays all i need is to see her...and i can't and it hurts...real bad.. but i guess that's life..anyways...life blows..softball this year is gonna blow...i don't even wanna play..the team sucks and everyone is quitting..so yea that sucks..on a better note..my hittin is pretty damn sweet..so that would be a good thing to have for the season.. and tomorro i get out of school early...but to go to some stupid doctor to tell me im not eating right and that im dumb n lazy..which im not lazy cuz im always runnin around with sports n shit but ya kno how it goes... ughh whatever i just wanna get outta this place..NOWWWWWWW damnit :-(